I hope that everyone had a wonderful Christmas. Ours was quiet, but there was much to be thankful for. Mom is doing better, although she is still losing weight. Her spirits were high last week. We attended church on Christmas Eve and she was overcome with emotion when our Pastor was giving her sermon. One of our church council members sang "O Holy Night". He has such an amazing voice and it brought joy to my heart listening to him sing.
Brittany went to church with Joshua and his family. Afterwards they came over and we opened our gifts from Rob & Laura. Then we played a game I had bought for Britt & Josh. What fun we had and Mom & Dad were laughing so hard. It was awesome to see them forget about their troubles and enjoy themselves.
Christmas morning Britt went to Josh's early for their family gift exchange. Once she got home, we opened our gifts. Mom had a wonderful day and that was our goal. I did make her put the red bow on her head, but I forgot the camera so I could post the picture. Next week, I will be sure and post it for everyone.
On Friday I took her to radiation while Dad spent some quality time with Brittany. She is now two weeks into radiation with 5 weeks to go. :)
She has no side effects as of yet; she lacks energy, but she has for some time now. Treatment does that to you. Once she is finished with radiation, my brother and sister-in law are going to fly her down to Florida to spend some time with them and my Grandmother who is 96. Mom hasn't seen her mother for a few years and she cannot wait to visit with her. I am in awe of the fact that no matter how old we are, we still want our mommies when we don't feel well or are in need of a hug.
Nothing special is planned for New Year's Eve tonight. I may rent some movies if I have time and we will be together and count our blessings.
I hope that everyone has a Happy New Year.
Mo
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas to everyone. I want to AGAIN thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers for Mom. It is going to be a wonderful Christmas. :)
Love,
Mo
Love,
Mo
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
The Other Love of Her Life: Her Granddaughter, Brittany
This is the other love of Mom's life. My daughter, Brittany. She had a birthday Dec. 21st. I cannot believe my baby is 22 already. I believe that my Mom loves her so much it hurts...if that is possible! :)
The love of her life
My Mama and Daddy. I don't know what she would do without him, despite him driving her crazy sometimes! :)
Making Her Wish
She was a little choked up at this moment in time, but they were happy tears, as all of her friends surprised her!
Radiation continues
Mom's radiation is each day, Mon. through Fri. at 11:30 AM. the worst part of it is that Mom LOVES to sleep in and HATES having to get out of bed earlier than she would like! Yesterday, the radiation oncologist had a Christmas party and all of the patients received a goodie bag. Plus, Dad got to eat lots of yummy food while he was waiting for Mom.
She is feeling good. She looks better as each day goes by and the hair is growing! This will be such a wonderful Christmas. I will make sure I post a pic of Mom wearing the red bow that I bought for her to put on her head Christmas morning. I cannot think of anything else I could want for Christmas!
I am going to post some pics from Mom's surprise party from her friends. What a wonderful day that was!
I hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas! God Bless all of you.
Mo
P.S. Jane has recovered fantastically from her brain surgery. She is a walking miracle!
She is feeling good. She looks better as each day goes by and the hair is growing! This will be such a wonderful Christmas. I will make sure I post a pic of Mom wearing the red bow that I bought for her to put on her head Christmas morning. I cannot think of anything else I could want for Christmas!
I am going to post some pics from Mom's surprise party from her friends. What a wonderful day that was!
I hope that everyone has a wonderful Christmas! God Bless all of you.
Mo
P.S. Jane has recovered fantastically from her brain surgery. She is a walking miracle!
Friday, December 19, 2008
On Wednesday Mom had an appointment to be fitted for her new boob and mastectomy bras. Brittany went with Mom since she is home for Christmas break. She said that Mom did wonderfully and they actually had fun! Mom was fitted with a prosthesis (breast) and given a bra to wear home. Her insurance allows for 6 bras a year, so she picked out 5 more. Brittany convinced her to pick vibrant colors, as in Britt's words "You only live once, Grandma". Mom got pink, purple, etc. She ordered 2 camisoles as well.
And in Mom's words, "she looks normal now", although everyone's definition of normal is very different, I suppose. It was nice to see her smile. She was like a little kid at Christmas! So excited about her gifts! It is amazing when you see her. It looks as if she still has both boobs! The woman who fitted her did a great job. Again, Mom said the staff was exceptionally nice and caring. Plus, she got to see her surgeon, Dr. Malay, as well. Mom stopped in the office to say hello while they were in Cranberry.
There really are angels here on earth. Mom's medical team has been amazing thus far, as well as their staff.
I bought a huge red bow at Walmart for Mom to put on top of her head Christmas morning. After all, she is my gift this year. I will take a picture and post it for everyone.
Love all of you so much!
Mo
And in Mom's words, "she looks normal now", although everyone's definition of normal is very different, I suppose. It was nice to see her smile. She was like a little kid at Christmas! So excited about her gifts! It is amazing when you see her. It looks as if she still has both boobs! The woman who fitted her did a great job. Again, Mom said the staff was exceptionally nice and caring. Plus, she got to see her surgeon, Dr. Malay, as well. Mom stopped in the office to say hello while they were in Cranberry.
There really are angels here on earth. Mom's medical team has been amazing thus far, as well as their staff.
I bought a huge red bow at Walmart for Mom to put on top of her head Christmas morning. After all, she is my gift this year. I will take a picture and post it for everyone.
Love all of you so much!
Mo
Monday, December 15, 2008
71st Birthday
Today is Mom's birthday and she had her 1st dose of radiation. Yesterday 5 of her girlfriends from high school came and surprised her for her 71st. They brought all of the food, cake & ice cream and lots of laughter. Mom was so happy, she cried. Happy tears for once. They had such a wonderful time laughing and carrying on.
All Mom had to do was sit and enjoy herself. Britt, Dad & I took care of the clean-up. There was such great positive energy in the house! After everyone left, Britt, Mom & I created some home-made Christmas ornaments. Mom & I had Britt laughing, as we are so NOT creative when painting/decorating ornaments. Mom chose a 4 leaf clover that she could paint green. I chose a snowflake and 2 ribbons that I painted pink for breast cancer awareness. That was the extent of my artistry. Paint. Oh and I glued some gemstones on my snowflake, but that was Brittany's idea. We had fun, anyhow.
I called Mom to see how radiation went and she said the Dr. and staff members sang Happy Birthday to her. She was so excited. Those exceptional individuals who work with cancer patients are so compassionate and caring. Mom has had many wonderful doctors, nurses, etc. during this entire ordeal. They have made the road much easier to travel.
Not sure what we are going to do for her birthday tonight. She was going to cook herself and I said no way! I had jury duty this morning, so I wasn't sure if I would be picked for a jury or not; I ended up being dismissed at 10:30 AM today, but have to go back tomorrow. To make a long story short, I didn't know if I would be home to take her out to dinner, but as jury duty is no longer a worry today, she shall get treated to dinner out. I would say she is deserving of that. :)
Brittany is home for the holidays and that makes the house a happier place, as well. She brightens her grandmother's days so much. I don't know if she realizes it or not, but Mom's world revolves around her. We may not be opening many gifts this year, but we have received the greatest gift of all and that is Mom's life and health.
Tomorrow Mom goes to Cranberry to get fitted for her fake boob and mastectomy bras. That is my birthday/Christmas gift to her; covering that cost.
I will keep you updated as to how radiation is going.
A very special thank you to my forever best friend, Stritz, for sending my mom a funny book and letting her know she cares. It was so nice talking to Lori. We have been friends since kindergarten; she lives in Pittsburgh and we don't keep in touch near as often as we should. However, I think about her every day and love her like a sister. Thanks, Lor. You are an angel.
Until next time,
keep Mom in your prayers.
Mo
All Mom had to do was sit and enjoy herself. Britt, Dad & I took care of the clean-up. There was such great positive energy in the house! After everyone left, Britt, Mom & I created some home-made Christmas ornaments. Mom & I had Britt laughing, as we are so NOT creative when painting/decorating ornaments. Mom chose a 4 leaf clover that she could paint green. I chose a snowflake and 2 ribbons that I painted pink for breast cancer awareness. That was the extent of my artistry. Paint. Oh and I glued some gemstones on my snowflake, but that was Brittany's idea. We had fun, anyhow.
I called Mom to see how radiation went and she said the Dr. and staff members sang Happy Birthday to her. She was so excited. Those exceptional individuals who work with cancer patients are so compassionate and caring. Mom has had many wonderful doctors, nurses, etc. during this entire ordeal. They have made the road much easier to travel.
Not sure what we are going to do for her birthday tonight. She was going to cook herself and I said no way! I had jury duty this morning, so I wasn't sure if I would be picked for a jury or not; I ended up being dismissed at 10:30 AM today, but have to go back tomorrow. To make a long story short, I didn't know if I would be home to take her out to dinner, but as jury duty is no longer a worry today, she shall get treated to dinner out. I would say she is deserving of that. :)
Brittany is home for the holidays and that makes the house a happier place, as well. She brightens her grandmother's days so much. I don't know if she realizes it or not, but Mom's world revolves around her. We may not be opening many gifts this year, but we have received the greatest gift of all and that is Mom's life and health.
Tomorrow Mom goes to Cranberry to get fitted for her fake boob and mastectomy bras. That is my birthday/Christmas gift to her; covering that cost.
I will keep you updated as to how radiation is going.
A very special thank you to my forever best friend, Stritz, for sending my mom a funny book and letting her know she cares. It was so nice talking to Lori. We have been friends since kindergarten; she lives in Pittsburgh and we don't keep in touch near as often as we should. However, I think about her every day and love her like a sister. Thanks, Lor. You are an angel.
Until next time,
keep Mom in your prayers.
Mo
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Markers for Radiation
Mom went to see her radiation oncologist yesterday and discovered that she will have to have 7 weeks of radiation. She has an appointment today to receive her markers so the radiation goes to the right place. The were at the Drs. office for about 3 1/2 hours, with 1 and 1/2 hours being with the doctors. Mom said he went through each and every one of the pages in her charts. Very thorough. Which is a good thing. When she was there, a social worker came and brought some knitted caps that are provided for cancer patients. Mom picked out 6 hats to wear this winter! The funny thing is that I had just read about this project on the New Castle News online. There was a little article about local women who knit hats for cancer patients and the hats are free through the Cancer Society. I was going to tell Mom about it and then they showed up at the doctor's office.
Mom was like a little kid at Christmas showing me her hats last night. I believe I am finally getting through to her that Christmas isn't about how many presents you give/receive. As long as my mom is alive and healthy on Christmas Day, that is present enough for me!
Back to work I go. Again, thank you for your thoughts and prayers and please say a prayer for Jane. She is a local woman who is having surgery for her brain tumor today.
Love you all.
Mo
Mom was like a little kid at Christmas showing me her hats last night. I believe I am finally getting through to her that Christmas isn't about how many presents you give/receive. As long as my mom is alive and healthy on Christmas Day, that is present enough for me!
Back to work I go. Again, thank you for your thoughts and prayers and please say a prayer for Jane. She is a local woman who is having surgery for her brain tumor today.
Love you all.
Mo
Monday, December 1, 2008
Monday December 1st
Mom goes to the radiation oncologist this week for her consultation. The sooner she begins radiation the better. She is tired of Drs. offices and such.
She is still very emotional. I wish I had a solution, but I don't.
She had a nice Thanksgiving, but cried again. I only wish they were happy tears.
Please say a prayer for Jane, a woman we have come to know through her blog; she lives in New Wilmington. She is scheduled for brain surgery this week due to a brain tumor. I have not met her in person, but she inspires me every day. What a fighter she is.
I will update on Mom's radiation schedule when I know the plan.
Mo
She is still very emotional. I wish I had a solution, but I don't.
She had a nice Thanksgiving, but cried again. I only wish they were happy tears.
Please say a prayer for Jane, a woman we have come to know through her blog; she lives in New Wilmington. She is scheduled for brain surgery this week due to a brain tumor. I have not met her in person, but she inspires me every day. What a fighter she is.
I will update on Mom's radiation schedule when I know the plan.
Mo
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Update on Mom
Dr. Wilson's office called Mom yesterday for some basic info; she will go to his office for her radiation. She also received a call from the woman who will assist her in purhasing mastectomy bras and her "cadillac of fake boobs". She has a deductible of $5 per bra and $60 for the fake boob. Absurd isn't it that you have to pay for a fake boob?
Her appt. is for Dec. 17th, so I will take her to Cranberry that day. The woman will meet us at Dr. Malay's office. I don't even know the name of the company; I will have to ask Mom. They will size her and all of that good stuff.
Mom sees Dr. Simon tomorrow for her post surgery visit, as well. She'll find out tomorrow if she has to continue seeing her or not.
She is improving slowly, but surely.
As always, thank you for the prayers!
Mo
Her appt. is for Dec. 17th, so I will take her to Cranberry that day. The woman will meet us at Dr. Malay's office. I don't even know the name of the company; I will have to ask Mom. They will size her and all of that good stuff.
Mom sees Dr. Simon tomorrow for her post surgery visit, as well. She'll find out tomorrow if she has to continue seeing her or not.
She is improving slowly, but surely.
As always, thank you for the prayers!
Mo
Monday, November 17, 2008
No More Drains!
Mom went to see her surgeon again today and the drains were removed! Mom was so excited! Dr. Malay's office is going to have someone call Mom to set up an appointment to see about a fake boob ("cadillac" version, remember?) and they will also have someone call Mom to assist her in dealing with her emotions.
The tears have been flowing like Niagra Falls the past few days. I can talk until I am blue in the face with cheerful words of wisdom and such, but the truth is: I am not in her shoes. I don't understand what she is feeling or why she is feeling that way. It breaks my heart that I cannot bring back that spark, but I have faith that it will return to Mom soon enough.
Dr. Malay's office will set up her radiation appointments and Mom goes back to see her in 3 months. At that time, she will have a clean bill of health (fingers crossed, prayers said, faith strong - :) !!!!!)
I spoke to one of Mom's good friends today and she & 4 or 5 other gals are going to surprise my Mom for her birthday in December by bringing her a cake and ice cream. It is very difficult to pull off a surprise for my mother, but I am going to do my damndest to pull this off.
It is refreshing to see the good in so many people when someone you love is ill. We have been truly blessed by so many wonderful friends and neighbors. Thank you to everyone who has prayed and will continue to pray.
We all love you and thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
Mo
The tears have been flowing like Niagra Falls the past few days. I can talk until I am blue in the face with cheerful words of wisdom and such, but the truth is: I am not in her shoes. I don't understand what she is feeling or why she is feeling that way. It breaks my heart that I cannot bring back that spark, but I have faith that it will return to Mom soon enough.
Dr. Malay's office will set up her radiation appointments and Mom goes back to see her in 3 months. At that time, she will have a clean bill of health (fingers crossed, prayers said, faith strong - :) !!!!!)
I spoke to one of Mom's good friends today and she & 4 or 5 other gals are going to surprise my Mom for her birthday in December by bringing her a cake and ice cream. It is very difficult to pull off a surprise for my mother, but I am going to do my damndest to pull this off.
It is refreshing to see the good in so many people when someone you love is ill. We have been truly blessed by so many wonderful friends and neighbors. Thank you to everyone who has prayed and will continue to pray.
We all love you and thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
Mo
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Monday's Dr. Appt.
Monday the 10th Mom had her appointment with Dr. Malay. Dad told me that Mom had been crying that morning. She said she looked "ugly" without her breast. Spirits were low.
She was so looking forward to having the drains removed. Her appt. was for 1:30 but she wasn't called in until 2:30. She was not too happy about sitting and waiting. She was extremely anxious.
The nurse came in 1st and took the dressing off Mom's incision. The look on Mom's face said it all. She was "down". Tears filled her eyes and I almost had to leave the room. I hate when she cries. I know she is entitled and I know she will have many days like that, but I still hate when she cries. I just want to fix everything. NOW.
Then the nurse gave us the bad news that the drains would not come out. Dr. Malay came in and confirmed. Mom was draining too much, still. If they would have removed the drains, she would have swelled and they would have had to put them back in, which would mean another operation.
Dr. Malay told us to keep stripping the drains and let her know if the drainage was less than 30 ml for at least 3 days in a row. That is when the drains can be removed. :(
Dr. Malay gave Mom a hug, though and Mom smiled at that! She has another appt. for next Monday. Let's hope the drains come out then.
I was off work on Tuesday due to Veterans Day. When Mom got up, we prepared to do our nursing duties and strip the drains. Well, the damn things had somehow partially slid out of her during the night! I called the Drs office, who told me to call Home Health Care. They sent a nurse out to check on Mom. Thank God everything was fine. She said that as long as the fluid was still draining and there was no leakage from the incision, there was nothing to worry about. Mom's blood pressure was good and her heart and lungs were in great shape, as well.
Now we pray that things move along as they are supposed to and the Dr. removes the drains next Monday.
Mom has her next appt. with Dr. Simon (oncologist) on Nov. 20th. At that time we will find out when radiation begins. She still has 6 1/2 weeks of that to look forward to. Dr. Simons will make her smile. She has a way of cheering Mom up.
I will keep you updated.
Mo
She was so looking forward to having the drains removed. Her appt. was for 1:30 but she wasn't called in until 2:30. She was not too happy about sitting and waiting. She was extremely anxious.
The nurse came in 1st and took the dressing off Mom's incision. The look on Mom's face said it all. She was "down". Tears filled her eyes and I almost had to leave the room. I hate when she cries. I know she is entitled and I know she will have many days like that, but I still hate when she cries. I just want to fix everything. NOW.
Then the nurse gave us the bad news that the drains would not come out. Dr. Malay came in and confirmed. Mom was draining too much, still. If they would have removed the drains, she would have swelled and they would have had to put them back in, which would mean another operation.
Dr. Malay told us to keep stripping the drains and let her know if the drainage was less than 30 ml for at least 3 days in a row. That is when the drains can be removed. :(
Dr. Malay gave Mom a hug, though and Mom smiled at that! She has another appt. for next Monday. Let's hope the drains come out then.
I was off work on Tuesday due to Veterans Day. When Mom got up, we prepared to do our nursing duties and strip the drains. Well, the damn things had somehow partially slid out of her during the night! I called the Drs office, who told me to call Home Health Care. They sent a nurse out to check on Mom. Thank God everything was fine. She said that as long as the fluid was still draining and there was no leakage from the incision, there was nothing to worry about. Mom's blood pressure was good and her heart and lungs were in great shape, as well.
Now we pray that things move along as they are supposed to and the Dr. removes the drains next Monday.
Mom has her next appt. with Dr. Simon (oncologist) on Nov. 20th. At that time we will find out when radiation begins. She still has 6 1/2 weeks of that to look forward to. Dr. Simons will make her smile. She has a way of cheering Mom up.
I will keep you updated.
Mo
Monday, November 10, 2008
Thank You God
Thank you, God................
Mom's surgery went very well. They removed 11 lymph nodes, with only 2 showing any signs of cancer. Her left breast was removed as well. Her surgery lasted approximately 2 1/2 hours. Everyone at UPMC in Cranberry was so nice. Mom was placed in a private room, which she was very happy about!
She was up and in the bathroom the night of surgery and was sent home less than 24 hours later. She came home with two drains, which we had to empty and record. We have had two home health visits, both of which were by two more angels on earth. Mom has had so many angels taking care of her.
The most pain she is experiencing is under her arm where the lymph nodes were removed. She has been utilizing the pain killers as directed. She has been relaxing in her recliner and getting lots of rest. We all kept a close watch on her to ensure she didn't try to do anything she wasn't supposed to. She is so stubborn and does not like to sit still. You have to watch her 24 hours a day or she will try to do something she should not be doing!
Her spirits are high and I am so relieved for that. Your attitude is so important to recovery.
We see Dr. Malay at 1:30 today. Hopefully the drains will be removed. Mom is anxious to get them out. My sister-in-law sent her a neat item that is called a kangaroo pouch I believe. It is a little pouch that holds her drains. It has been a lifesaver, let me tell you. No pinning the drains to her bra or shirt. What a lifesaver that was.
I will update after we see Dr. Malay this afternoon.
Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers.
Mo
Mom's surgery went very well. They removed 11 lymph nodes, with only 2 showing any signs of cancer. Her left breast was removed as well. Her surgery lasted approximately 2 1/2 hours. Everyone at UPMC in Cranberry was so nice. Mom was placed in a private room, which she was very happy about!
She was up and in the bathroom the night of surgery and was sent home less than 24 hours later. She came home with two drains, which we had to empty and record. We have had two home health visits, both of which were by two more angels on earth. Mom has had so many angels taking care of her.
The most pain she is experiencing is under her arm where the lymph nodes were removed. She has been utilizing the pain killers as directed. She has been relaxing in her recliner and getting lots of rest. We all kept a close watch on her to ensure she didn't try to do anything she wasn't supposed to. She is so stubborn and does not like to sit still. You have to watch her 24 hours a day or she will try to do something she should not be doing!
Her spirits are high and I am so relieved for that. Your attitude is so important to recovery.
We see Dr. Malay at 1:30 today. Hopefully the drains will be removed. Mom is anxious to get them out. My sister-in-law sent her a neat item that is called a kangaroo pouch I believe. It is a little pouch that holds her drains. It has been a lifesaver, let me tell you. No pinning the drains to her bra or shirt. What a lifesaver that was.
I will update after we see Dr. Malay this afternoon.
Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers.
Mo
Monday, November 3, 2008
So Scared............
Hopefully by this time tomorrow, Mom will be out of surgery and the damn cancer will finally be removed from her body.
I am so scared. Seriously. Mom is too. Scared shitless we all are. I wish tomorrow was overwith. Mom is depressed and sad and I wish I could fix it and make it all better.
But I can't and that sucks.
Please keep Mom in your thoughts and prayers. We go to the hospital at 10:30 AM tomorrow. Dad, Rob, me, Aunt Bonnie & Uncle Jim will be there and Brittany is coming up from Pitt, also.
Love all of you so much. :)
Mo
I am so scared. Seriously. Mom is too. Scared shitless we all are. I wish tomorrow was overwith. Mom is depressed and sad and I wish I could fix it and make it all better.
But I can't and that sucks.
Please keep Mom in your thoughts and prayers. We go to the hospital at 10:30 AM tomorrow. Dad, Rob, me, Aunt Bonnie & Uncle Jim will be there and Brittany is coming up from Pitt, also.
Love all of you so much. :)
Mo
Friday, October 31, 2008
Rob is Coming Home!
Just found out this morning that my brother is coming in from Florida for Mom's surgery! Thank you, God! Mom will be so excited when she finds out! Now she will have everyone she loves the most (with the exception of her daughter-in-law and Britt's boyfriend) there with her at the hospital. She will have a whole entourage of family to boost her spirits and get her through this!
Thank you, Laura, for getting my brother up here. You are an angel on earth, sweetie!
Plan on keeping Mom busy this weekend. At least the Steelers are playing on Monday night, which should keep her mind occupied a little bit.
Keep praying...............................
Mo
Thank you, Laura, for getting my brother up here. You are an angel on earth, sweetie!
Plan on keeping Mom busy this weekend. At least the Steelers are playing on Monday night, which should keep her mind occupied a little bit.
Keep praying...............................
Mo
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
6 More Days..........
Mom went to see Dr. Simon yesterday; her final visit with her prior to surgery. I think that Dr. Simon helped to ease Mom's mind a bit. She told her that this surgery would be much easier than going through the chemo.
Your thoughts and prayers are needed more than ever for Mom. I truly believe that she doesn't realize just how strong she really is, but she still needs our prayers to get her through this. She has received so many cards and well wishes, as well as prayers. She is overwhelmed by all of the wonderful support she has received thus far. Keep it coming; it brightens her day so much.
Either myself or Brittany will post after surgery to let you know how everything went.
Maureen
Your thoughts and prayers are needed more than ever for Mom. I truly believe that she doesn't realize just how strong she really is, but she still needs our prayers to get her through this. She has received so many cards and well wishes, as well as prayers. She is overwhelmed by all of the wonderful support she has received thus far. Keep it coming; it brightens her day so much.
Either myself or Brittany will post after surgery to let you know how everything went.
Maureen
Friday, October 24, 2008
11 Days Until Surgery
As of today, Mom has 11 days until surgery. She is very anxious about it, to say the least. Her last chemo treatment went well. She & Dad bought May's Donuts for the girls at Dr. Simon's office that day. On Saturday the 11th, Dad & I had run to the grocery store for a few things and when we got home, I gave Mom a hug and she was burning up. I insisted she take her temperature and it was 101.4, which is not a good thing for a chemo patient. I immediately called the Dr. They advised me to take her to the emergency room. Mom did not want to hear of it. She started crying and saying she wouldn't go. No way no how. I called my brother in Florida to talk to her and help coax her into going. She absolutely hates Jameson Hospital, so I told her I would take her to any hospital she wanted to go to, but she was GOING! Well, we ended up riding to Jameson "just to see if they were buys" as Mom put it. There were only a few cars there, so we ended up going in. They took her right away and when they found out she was a cancer patient who had just had chemo earlier in the week treated her like gold. Too bad you have to have cancer for them to treat you that good!
They put her into a room by herself to avoid germs as much as possible. Dr. Gero came in and examined her. He orderd a chest x-ray, bloodwork and a urine sample. Her chest x-ray was good, her blood work was good, but she ended up having a urinary tract infection. They gave her a prescription for Cipro and gave her the 1st dose before we left. Dr. Gero is by far the most genuine, caring doctor I have met in that emergency room. He took such wonderful care of Mom, and explained everything to us in detail. Plus, I had him on my side, as I got him to tell her that she was right to listen to me and go to the ER. he told us if we had waited until the next day, she probably would have been admitted, as the infection would have been that much worse and her blood counts would have been affected.
I exclaimed a great big "I TOLD YOU SO" to Mom. I loved it, as I heard that so many times as a child. ha ha
One thing about my mama is that she has maintained her sense of humor throughout this whole ordeal. Let's hope that continues when it is time for surgery.
She is scheduled for November 4th, but we won't know what time until Monday Nov. 3rd. I will have that entire week of work, so that I can help take care of her. She will come home with 2 drains that we will have to empty and measure. She will also have to have sponge baths, as she won't be able to get her incisions wet. We watched an online movie describing the procedure. She cried after watching it. Losing a breast is a very difficult thing for a woman to experience. I don't care what age you are, it is a traumatic event. She is NOT looking forward to it.
We were looking at fake boobs in magazines the other night..........I was trying to make her laugh, as some come with nipples and some don't. She said she wants the "Cadillac" of fake boobs!
First we will get through her surgery; then we will search high and low for a "cadillac boob". Only the best for my mom. :)
Still don't know if my brother is coming up from Florida for the surgery or not. Britt will be coming up from Pitt to Cranberry, so it will be Dad, Britt & I at least. WE are going to load Dad up with crossword puzzles that day while Mom is in surgery. It can be anywhere from 2 hours +. Hopefully it will be the shorter of the time frames.
Thank you again for the prayers. Mom appreciates it more than you know. We love all of you.
Maureen
They put her into a room by herself to avoid germs as much as possible. Dr. Gero came in and examined her. He orderd a chest x-ray, bloodwork and a urine sample. Her chest x-ray was good, her blood work was good, but she ended up having a urinary tract infection. They gave her a prescription for Cipro and gave her the 1st dose before we left. Dr. Gero is by far the most genuine, caring doctor I have met in that emergency room. He took such wonderful care of Mom, and explained everything to us in detail. Plus, I had him on my side, as I got him to tell her that she was right to listen to me and go to the ER. he told us if we had waited until the next day, she probably would have been admitted, as the infection would have been that much worse and her blood counts would have been affected.
I exclaimed a great big "I TOLD YOU SO" to Mom. I loved it, as I heard that so many times as a child. ha ha
One thing about my mama is that she has maintained her sense of humor throughout this whole ordeal. Let's hope that continues when it is time for surgery.
She is scheduled for November 4th, but we won't know what time until Monday Nov. 3rd. I will have that entire week of work, so that I can help take care of her. She will come home with 2 drains that we will have to empty and measure. She will also have to have sponge baths, as she won't be able to get her incisions wet. We watched an online movie describing the procedure. She cried after watching it. Losing a breast is a very difficult thing for a woman to experience. I don't care what age you are, it is a traumatic event. She is NOT looking forward to it.
We were looking at fake boobs in magazines the other night..........I was trying to make her laugh, as some come with nipples and some don't. She said she wants the "Cadillac" of fake boobs!
First we will get through her surgery; then we will search high and low for a "cadillac boob". Only the best for my mom. :)
Still don't know if my brother is coming up from Florida for the surgery or not. Britt will be coming up from Pitt to Cranberry, so it will be Dad, Britt & I at least. WE are going to load Dad up with crossword puzzles that day while Mom is in surgery. It can be anywhere from 2 hours +. Hopefully it will be the shorter of the time frames.
Thank you again for the prayers. Mom appreciates it more than you know. We love all of you.
Maureen
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Mom only has 1 more chemo treatment to go! Tuesday October 7th is the last one. Yipee! Next is strenthening her for surgery. I moved in with Mom & Dad............financial issues and to help out them through the war, as we call it.
Mom's spirits have been low. She has been content to basically lounge all day long. She gets worn out just going to the store these days. She is extremely nervous about surgery, as I have stated before.
She is constantly worrying about that day and how quickly she will recover. Dad is showing the signs of worry, as well. My brother & I were talking when he was up for a visit and said that Dad has seemed to age more during this process than Mom.
Mom doesn't have to see the surgeon prior to surgery, so I guess we just wait for the phone call to let us know what time to show up at the hospital on November 4th. While this country awaits the news of who the next President will be, Mom will be fighting with everything ounce of energy she has. And we will be right by her side.
It is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. One of my co-workers brought me in a bagel for my mom yesterday. It was shaped like a pink ribbon. :)
Please purchase items that give proceeds to breast cancer research! It seems as if there is pink everywhere! It is great to see, but it would be so much nicer if a cure could be found.
There really isn't much else to report. Mom keeps going each day and tries to remain positive. The "why me?" question pops up quite frequently, but she has resolved to fight the fight.
Thanks for all of your prayers.
Mo
Mom's spirits have been low. She has been content to basically lounge all day long. She gets worn out just going to the store these days. She is extremely nervous about surgery, as I have stated before.
She is constantly worrying about that day and how quickly she will recover. Dad is showing the signs of worry, as well. My brother & I were talking when he was up for a visit and said that Dad has seemed to age more during this process than Mom.
Mom doesn't have to see the surgeon prior to surgery, so I guess we just wait for the phone call to let us know what time to show up at the hospital on November 4th. While this country awaits the news of who the next President will be, Mom will be fighting with everything ounce of energy she has. And we will be right by her side.
It is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. One of my co-workers brought me in a bagel for my mom yesterday. It was shaped like a pink ribbon. :)
Please purchase items that give proceeds to breast cancer research! It seems as if there is pink everywhere! It is great to see, but it would be so much nicer if a cure could be found.
There really isn't much else to report. Mom keeps going each day and tries to remain positive. The "why me?" question pops up quite frequently, but she has resolved to fight the fight.
Thanks for all of your prayers.
Mo
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Again, I have failed at posting on a regular basis. Mom's 2nd round of chemo has affected her much differently than the 1st round. She has almost no energy and rarely wants to leave the house. She has had an array of side affects from this medication, but the lack of energy is the worst. She is very depressed. I am concerned about that. I have appt. to take her to her PCP tomorrow to see about a higher dose of her anti-depressant. My brother was in from Florida this past weekend, and Mom slept most of the day on Saturday, which she would never do under normal circumstances. She doesn't get to see Rob very often and makes sure she enjoys each and every moment with him. She broke out in hives Saturday afternoon; she is a nervous wreck. Ever since we saw the surgeon, she has been down emotionally. We had to call Dr. Simon to see if she was allowed Benadryl. When you are getting chemo you can't just take anything.
She went for her bloodwork today at Dr. Simon's and everything looked good. She told them about being extremely lightheaded, so they took her blood pressure, but it was good, as well. She is frustrated, tired, sick depressed and all I want to do is press the "Easy Button" and make things good again for her...................................
She went for her bloodwork today at Dr. Simon's and everything looked good. She told them about being extremely lightheaded, so they took her blood pressure, but it was good, as well. She is frustrated, tired, sick depressed and all I want to do is press the "Easy Button" and make things good again for her...................................
Monday, August 11, 2008
Date for Surgery
We saw Dr. Malay today. She was thrilled with Mom's progress and said how good Mom looks. We absolutely love Dr. Malay. If every doctor had her bedside manner, we would all be so very lucky. She and her staff are very professional, as well as compassionate. They have numerous hugs to give out and are so good at lifting your spirits.
We have a surgery date of November 4th tentatively scheduled, pending no complications with the rest of Mom's chemo sessions. If everything goes as planned, her last chemo treatment will be the 1st week of October. We have to wait 3 weeks before surgery; Dr. Malay is on vacation the last week of October, so 1st week of November it is.
After surgery Mom will have 6 1/2 weeks of radiation. That is 5 days a week for 6 1/2 weeks. We are looking at early 2009 before this whole process is overwith. And even then it isn't over.....Mom will have to take meds for 5 years to help prevent the cancer from occuring in the right breast. Mom would like Dr. Malay to just take them both at once, but Dr. doesn't think that is necessary.
Mom will only stay overnight 1 evening, then come home with 2 drains. They will arrange for a visiting nurse to help us take care of her. All of her stitches will be on the inside. Which makes me very happy. I am going to take that week of work, so that I can be there to take care of her. Dad gets so nervous that he simply cannot do it all be himself. And it will take two of us to hold her down when she tries to do too much too fast! She is a stubborn one.
Dad & I took Mom to lunch after the Dr. visit. Brittany wanted them to see her apartment today, as we were already 1/2 way to Pitt, but Mom was exhausted. Her back was hurting, too. When we arrived home, she immediately put her comfies on and reclined her chair with a blanket over her. She was out of energy for the day.
It is amazing how worn out she gets now. All of her energy was spent on the Dr. visit. That was it. Done.
She goes to Dr. Simon's office for her weekly bloodwork. Hopefully her counts will be o.k.
Thanks for listening. and praying.
Maureen
We have a surgery date of November 4th tentatively scheduled, pending no complications with the rest of Mom's chemo sessions. If everything goes as planned, her last chemo treatment will be the 1st week of October. We have to wait 3 weeks before surgery; Dr. Malay is on vacation the last week of October, so 1st week of November it is.
After surgery Mom will have 6 1/2 weeks of radiation. That is 5 days a week for 6 1/2 weeks. We are looking at early 2009 before this whole process is overwith. And even then it isn't over.....Mom will have to take meds for 5 years to help prevent the cancer from occuring in the right breast. Mom would like Dr. Malay to just take them both at once, but Dr. doesn't think that is necessary.
Mom will only stay overnight 1 evening, then come home with 2 drains. They will arrange for a visiting nurse to help us take care of her. All of her stitches will be on the inside. Which makes me very happy. I am going to take that week of work, so that I can be there to take care of her. Dad gets so nervous that he simply cannot do it all be himself. And it will take two of us to hold her down when she tries to do too much too fast! She is a stubborn one.
Dad & I took Mom to lunch after the Dr. visit. Brittany wanted them to see her apartment today, as we were already 1/2 way to Pitt, but Mom was exhausted. Her back was hurting, too. When we arrived home, she immediately put her comfies on and reclined her chair with a blanket over her. She was out of energy for the day.
It is amazing how worn out she gets now. All of her energy was spent on the Dr. visit. That was it. Done.
She goes to Dr. Simon's office for her weekly bloodwork. Hopefully her counts will be o.k.
Thanks for listening. and praying.
Maureen
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Bad Day
Mom & Dad's anniversary was yesterday. Mom was having one of her worst days ever, though. She had bad back pain and was the MOST tired she has ever been. I had to go to Pittsburgh last night to help my daughter in her new apartment and Mom & Dad were going to come with me. Mom called me at work crying...........she was having a "bad day" she said. I told her she is most certainly allowed to have a bad day.
I went home from work changed my clothes, packed up Britt's things and stopped at Mom's. This was a low point. I haven't seen her this upset and depressed since the whole "C" word was uttered to us. I cannot explain how difficult it is to see someone you love suffering.
She dozed most of the night and went to bed early. She was still sleeping at 10:00 AM today when I called to check on her.
I have to work 12-8 today, so I will be checking on her by phone as often as I can. I have only two words:
CANCER SUCKS!
I went home from work changed my clothes, packed up Britt's things and stopped at Mom's. This was a low point. I haven't seen her this upset and depressed since the whole "C" word was uttered to us. I cannot explain how difficult it is to see someone you love suffering.
She dozed most of the night and went to bed early. She was still sleeping at 10:00 AM today when I called to check on her.
I have to work 12-8 today, so I will be checking on her by phone as often as I can. I have only two words:
CANCER SUCKS!
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
New Chemo Treatment
I stopped to see Mom after work today. She is trying to sound strong, but I can tell that she is not feeling great. She had no adverse reactions to the new chemo, Taxotere, but she is absolutely worn out. It is so difficult to see her like this.
I wanted to go with her today, but my boss had other plans for me. What else is new? I took a vacation day August 11th so I could go to the surgeon with her.
I despise the fact that they have to literally put poison into your body to kill the cancer; it has such negative affects on your body and spirit.
Mom was NOT herself today. AT ALL. I worry so much about her. Please continue praying.
Britt & I are going over there tomorrow for dinner. She insists she is cooking; stubborn as she is. I know it is good for her to do things and be active, but she just looks so damn tired.
Another update will come tomorrow evening........
I wanted to go with her today, but my boss had other plans for me. What else is new? I took a vacation day August 11th so I could go to the surgeon with her.
I despise the fact that they have to literally put poison into your body to kill the cancer; it has such negative affects on your body and spirit.
Mom was NOT herself today. AT ALL. I worry so much about her. Please continue praying.
Britt & I are going over there tomorrow for dinner. She insists she is cooking; stubborn as she is. I know it is good for her to do things and be active, but she just looks so damn tired.
Another update will come tomorrow evening........
Friday, August 1, 2008
Not much new to report. Mom's levels increased when she had bloodwork this week, so that was a good sign. She gets her 1st treatment of the new chemo drug on August 5th. She is fretting about it. Very much. This is supposed to be more harsh on her body and decrease her energy level even more.
I will let everyone know how it goes......................................keep praying. WE appreciate it more than you will ever know. :)
I will let everyone know how it goes......................................keep praying. WE appreciate it more than you will ever know. :)
Friday, July 25, 2008
Mom & Dad visited with Britt & I last night. They were over for about an hour or so. Mom was tired, though, and they decided to get home. She gets worn out so much faster these days.
She has a rash on her one leg that is bothering her. I told her to talk to Dr. Simon's about it. I am not sure if it could be a side affect of the chemo or not. She said that it calms down at night, but in the AM it flares up again.
I received an email from Jane, whom I told everyone about. She would like to get together with Mom & I sometime. I gave her Mom's telephone number. Funny how something as awful as cancer gives you the opportunity to meet so many wonderful people.
I'm at work, so that's the update for today.
More to come............................please pray.
She has a rash on her one leg that is bothering her. I told her to talk to Dr. Simon's about it. I am not sure if it could be a side affect of the chemo or not. She said that it calms down at night, but in the AM it flares up again.
I received an email from Jane, whom I told everyone about. She would like to get together with Mom & I sometime. I gave her Mom's telephone number. Funny how something as awful as cancer gives you the opportunity to meet so many wonderful people.
I'm at work, so that's the update for today.
More to come............................please pray.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
O.K. Everyone should not be alarmed. I have now blogged 2 days in a row! :) Mom was feeling a little better yesterday. Not quite so tired. She & dad are coming to visit with Britt & I tonight and I can't wait to give her a hug. And to show her Jane's message. Jane posted two comments yesterday on my blog and I can't wait for Mom to read them.
As always, I thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers.
Until tomorrow..............................
As always, I thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers.
Until tomorrow..............................
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Well, again it has been too long since I have posted. I am such a procrastinator.
Mom has continuted to be quite the trooper, but the chemo is having it's affects on her. She is now completely bald (and beautiful, I might add). Brittany shaved her head for her so she didn't resemble a cupie doll anymore! Her lack of energy is increasing and she gets tired so easily. The Nuelasta shot she receives the day after chemo makes her bones ache and it is getting difficult for her to climb stairs. Her mood remains upbeat, though. She is such a fighter and I am so proud of her!
She met a woman who worked at Westminster yesterday. Her name is Jane and she is currently going through her 2nd bout with cancer. There was an article about Jane & her husband in the New Castle News (both have cancer) and an address was listed for Jane's blog. I have since read it each and every day, and it is the reason I begain a blog for Mom.
I am not as dedicated as Jane, though. I shall try to do better.
Anyhow, please keep Jane in your prayers as well. I am so glad that she & Mom met. Perhaps they can be an inspiration to each other.
Mom begins her next round of chemo on August 5th and will be receiving Tamoxere. Dr. Simons told Mom that this drug will be hard on her veins (still no port) and will probably result in strong fatigue. Mom is not looking forward to it. She went yesterday for bloodwork and her platelets are low. If she had been scheduled for chemo yesterday, she wouldn't have been able to recieve it.
The dr. told her to be extremely careful not to get cut. With the platelets being so low, her blood won't clot properly. I am going to meet her & dad at her next chemo appt. so that I can have the nurses explain her counts to me and what they mean. Mom gets a copy of her report each time she has bloodwork, but has no idea how to read the report. There is so much info to keep up with, it is amazing.
The mass in her breast and under her arm are both decreasing in size! YAY. The mass under her arm has decreased the most. From 5cm to 2 cm. We see her surgeon on August 11th, and are hoping for a date for surgery.
My brother is coming up from Florida for a long weekend in August. Mom is so excited. She loves having both of her us here at the same time.
My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer, as well and had a lumpectomy on Monday. Her lymph nodes looked o.k., but some were removed for further testing. If all goes well, she will have to have radiation; no chemo.
I am so tired of hearing of people having cancer. You don't realize how many people it affects until someone you know and love is diagnosed.
Until next time.....................please keep praying.
Mom has continuted to be quite the trooper, but the chemo is having it's affects on her. She is now completely bald (and beautiful, I might add). Brittany shaved her head for her so she didn't resemble a cupie doll anymore! Her lack of energy is increasing and she gets tired so easily. The Nuelasta shot she receives the day after chemo makes her bones ache and it is getting difficult for her to climb stairs. Her mood remains upbeat, though. She is such a fighter and I am so proud of her!
She met a woman who worked at Westminster yesterday. Her name is Jane and she is currently going through her 2nd bout with cancer. There was an article about Jane & her husband in the New Castle News (both have cancer) and an address was listed for Jane's blog. I have since read it each and every day, and it is the reason I begain a blog for Mom.
I am not as dedicated as Jane, though. I shall try to do better.
Anyhow, please keep Jane in your prayers as well. I am so glad that she & Mom met. Perhaps they can be an inspiration to each other.
Mom begins her next round of chemo on August 5th and will be receiving Tamoxere. Dr. Simons told Mom that this drug will be hard on her veins (still no port) and will probably result in strong fatigue. Mom is not looking forward to it. She went yesterday for bloodwork and her platelets are low. If she had been scheduled for chemo yesterday, she wouldn't have been able to recieve it.
The dr. told her to be extremely careful not to get cut. With the platelets being so low, her blood won't clot properly. I am going to meet her & dad at her next chemo appt. so that I can have the nurses explain her counts to me and what they mean. Mom gets a copy of her report each time she has bloodwork, but has no idea how to read the report. There is so much info to keep up with, it is amazing.
The mass in her breast and under her arm are both decreasing in size! YAY. The mass under her arm has decreased the most. From 5cm to 2 cm. We see her surgeon on August 11th, and are hoping for a date for surgery.
My brother is coming up from Florida for a long weekend in August. Mom is so excited. She loves having both of her us here at the same time.
My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer, as well and had a lumpectomy on Monday. Her lymph nodes looked o.k., but some were removed for further testing. If all goes well, she will have to have radiation; no chemo.
I am so tired of hearing of people having cancer. You don't realize how many people it affects until someone you know and love is diagnosed.
Until next time.....................please keep praying.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Thursday
Just talked to Mom. She isn't feeling well today. She had her shot yesterday (Neulasta) and the day after is normally a down day, but today she had to take her meds for naseau, which is unusual for her. Her tummy was not feeling well this morning. She has been laying in her chair all day. :(
I worry about her so much. Please continue praying..........................................
Maureen
I worry about her so much. Please continue praying..........................................
Maureen
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
3rd Chemo Treatment Today
Gosh, I am horrible at posting, aren't I? I must try and do better. Mom is having her 3rd chemo treatment as I type. (5 more to go.) Still no nausea; thank you God!
Today and tomorrow she will have less energy than usual, but other than that, she has been feeling good. She has developed a nagging cough, which Dr. Simons said was a side effect of both the chemo and the Neulasta shot. Mom's lungs and heart are in good shape AND her veins are holding up wonderfully. She absolutely does not want that port inserted!
Brittany being home has helped increase her spirits. Now that she is back, it is hard to believe she was in Australia for so long. The time went by so quickly.
Emotionally, she has both good and bad days. She hasn't contacted a support group yet, or reached out to anyone else w/cancer. When she is ready, she said.
My Aunt Bonnie was diagnosed with breast cancer recently...she will have the lump removed and then radiation. She has survived open heart surgery, so this should be a piece of cake. We hope, anyhow! Please pray for Aunt Bonnie as well as my mom.
This is a short one because I am working. I will let you know how Mom is feeling tomorrow.
Maureen
Today and tomorrow she will have less energy than usual, but other than that, she has been feeling good. She has developed a nagging cough, which Dr. Simons said was a side effect of both the chemo and the Neulasta shot. Mom's lungs and heart are in good shape AND her veins are holding up wonderfully. She absolutely does not want that port inserted!
Brittany being home has helped increase her spirits. Now that she is back, it is hard to believe she was in Australia for so long. The time went by so quickly.
Emotionally, she has both good and bad days. She hasn't contacted a support group yet, or reached out to anyone else w/cancer. When she is ready, she said.
My Aunt Bonnie was diagnosed with breast cancer recently...she will have the lump removed and then radiation. She has survived open heart surgery, so this should be a piece of cake. We hope, anyhow! Please pray for Aunt Bonnie as well as my mom.
This is a short one because I am working. I will let you know how Mom is feeling tomorrow.
Maureen
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Cupie Doll
It is Wednesday June 11th and I can't believe it has been so long since my last post. Mom had a 2nd chemo treatment on Tuesday June 3rd, and her Neulasta shot on June 4th. She usually feels crumby after she gets the shot. She told me she has been coughing; thus taking her temp. every 5 minutes. With chemo, you have to watch your temperature, as you are more prone to getting sick.
I went to Mom & Dads for dinner on Monday and Mom said she looks like a "cupie doll". I told her that she looks beautiful, but she wasn't buying it. She was crying and said how hard it is to look in the mirror. Again I told her that she is beautiful. Whether she has 1 hair on her head or 1,000 hairs on her head! We decided that if the small amount of hair that is left, remains, we are going to put a little baret in it and let it stick straight up!
She went for bloodwork this Tuesday and everything was o.k. Her platelets are down about 3,000, but the nurse said that the levels are normal for someone who has had 2 chemo treatments. I have yet to find the time to research this info. Deb, I believe I will be calling you one of these days for some expert information!
Mom has 6 more treatments to go; she was scheduled for a total of 8. This should take us through September at which time she will be scheduled for surgery. We see the surgeon in early August, so we will know more than.
One of Mom's friends from Westminster took her to lunch and a movie on Saturday June 7th. They ate at Bob Evans and then went to see Indiana Jones. Mom sounded so happy when she got back. I was working at Joey's, but she called and told me she had a really good time. That is what she needs. Friends and family supporting her. It is amazing what love and laughter can do for a person's spirits.
Speaking of spirits, Mom's will be wonderful this Friday evening at 9:55 P.M. We are picking up Brittany at the airport, as she is returning from Australia (FINALLY!). My mom is going to cry hysterically, I just know it. There shall be lots of Kodak moments that evening!
For the most part, (back to the "c" subject) Mom has been feeling pretty good, despite the chemo. She has not been sick to the stomach or thrown up or been in bed all day one time. Her energy level is down, of course, but she is such a trooper. The nurses told us that as long as she feels up to doing her normal day-to-day activites, let her do them. And of course, Mom insists on doing what she normally does.
I am so proud of her and how well she is handling all of this. I know she has her bad days, angry days and extremely sad days, but she still has that beautiful smile on her face and keeps on trekking.
Well, as I am at work, I suppose I should get to work. Please continue praying.
Maureen
P.S. Happy 21st birthday, Joshua Trey!!!
I went to Mom & Dads for dinner on Monday and Mom said she looks like a "cupie doll". I told her that she looks beautiful, but she wasn't buying it. She was crying and said how hard it is to look in the mirror. Again I told her that she is beautiful. Whether she has 1 hair on her head or 1,000 hairs on her head! We decided that if the small amount of hair that is left, remains, we are going to put a little baret in it and let it stick straight up!
She went for bloodwork this Tuesday and everything was o.k. Her platelets are down about 3,000, but the nurse said that the levels are normal for someone who has had 2 chemo treatments. I have yet to find the time to research this info. Deb, I believe I will be calling you one of these days for some expert information!
Mom has 6 more treatments to go; she was scheduled for a total of 8. This should take us through September at which time she will be scheduled for surgery. We see the surgeon in early August, so we will know more than.
One of Mom's friends from Westminster took her to lunch and a movie on Saturday June 7th. They ate at Bob Evans and then went to see Indiana Jones. Mom sounded so happy when she got back. I was working at Joey's, but she called and told me she had a really good time. That is what she needs. Friends and family supporting her. It is amazing what love and laughter can do for a person's spirits.
Speaking of spirits, Mom's will be wonderful this Friday evening at 9:55 P.M. We are picking up Brittany at the airport, as she is returning from Australia (FINALLY!). My mom is going to cry hysterically, I just know it. There shall be lots of Kodak moments that evening!
For the most part, (back to the "c" subject) Mom has been feeling pretty good, despite the chemo. She has not been sick to the stomach or thrown up or been in bed all day one time. Her energy level is down, of course, but she is such a trooper. The nurses told us that as long as she feels up to doing her normal day-to-day activites, let her do them. And of course, Mom insists on doing what she normally does.
I am so proud of her and how well she is handling all of this. I know she has her bad days, angry days and extremely sad days, but she still has that beautiful smile on her face and keeps on trekking.
Well, as I am at work, I suppose I should get to work. Please continue praying.
Maureen
P.S. Happy 21st birthday, Joshua Trey!!!
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Losing the Hair
It is May 31st. Mom's hair began to fall out on Tuesday. She found more than usual in the shower that morning and when she dried her hair, more starting falling. :( She put it all in a pile on her bookshelf and cried. and cried. and cried. It sucks. I told her to call our hair dresser and have him cut it really short. I thought that it might not seem so awul, if it was shorter, you know? Hell, I know I would be depressed.
So she went to Victor and got a new do. I stopped after work last night to check it out and to give her a huge Maureen hug. It looks good, but of course she hates it. Unfortunately it is time for the turbans and hats and the wig. She hates the wig. God bless her, she hates it. I probably would, too. :( I am really worried about her emotional status at this moment. She is so fragile. I revert back to my previous thought that I wish I could just hug her and make it all go away.
This entry is going to be short, however, because I have to eat dinner, get a shower and I am taking Mom & Dad out for the night. We are going to listen to a county band tonight. She needs a night out to laugh and smile and forget about the "C" word. I hope she enjoys herself.
I thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. Deb and Stritz, I will call you guys soon. I promise. It means so much to me that you are there for me and my family. Hopefully we can get together one of these days very soon.
Mom goes for her 2nd chemo session this Tuesday. After that Britt will be home in ten days. I am going to call the airport and attempt to arrange for my mom to meet Britt at the gate. This will hopefully be a surprise for Mama. Say your prayers that they allow it. I am hoping that under the unfortunate circumstances, they will break the rules and let Mom meet her at the gate. Britt and Mom are going to need some serious hug time when she arrives. And I mean serious hug time.
Please continue praying.......................
Mo
So she went to Victor and got a new do. I stopped after work last night to check it out and to give her a huge Maureen hug. It looks good, but of course she hates it. Unfortunately it is time for the turbans and hats and the wig. She hates the wig. God bless her, she hates it. I probably would, too. :( I am really worried about her emotional status at this moment. She is so fragile. I revert back to my previous thought that I wish I could just hug her and make it all go away.
This entry is going to be short, however, because I have to eat dinner, get a shower and I am taking Mom & Dad out for the night. We are going to listen to a county band tonight. She needs a night out to laugh and smile and forget about the "C" word. I hope she enjoys herself.
I thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. Deb and Stritz, I will call you guys soon. I promise. It means so much to me that you are there for me and my family. Hopefully we can get together one of these days very soon.
Mom goes for her 2nd chemo session this Tuesday. After that Britt will be home in ten days. I am going to call the airport and attempt to arrange for my mom to meet Britt at the gate. This will hopefully be a surprise for Mama. Say your prayers that they allow it. I am hoping that under the unfortunate circumstances, they will break the rules and let Mom meet her at the gate. Britt and Mom are going to need some serious hug time when she arrives. And I mean serious hug time.
Please continue praying.......................
Mo
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
1st Chemo Treatment
May 13th came way too soon, for Mom's liking. I took the day off of work to be with her. I had one of my buddies from Joey's make her a shirt that says "cancer sucks". It is a pink t-shirt with black letters. I thought it might add some humor to those dreaded treatment days. She wore the shirt proudly, I must say. Everyone at the Dr.'s office loved the shirt. Even Dr. Simons, who usually is just business, was laughing.
First the nurse came in and took mom's blood pressure. It was 114/62, which was much better than the 1st time we were there. It was 160/80 on May 3rd; her very first visit with Dr. Simons, which was the day we thought we might receive a diagnosis.
We had read all of the literature given to us by the doctors and were better prepared for this visit on the 13th. At least we knew what we were dealing with at this point. Dr. Simons examined Mom and then we went to the "treatment room", which is nothing more than a bunch of recliners for the patients to sit in. It was a busy day on the 13th. Sandra, a nurse came and reviewed the treatment and side effects with Mom yet another time. She is very comforting. They all are. These nurses are truly amazing people. Anyhow, they began with an anti-nausea medicine. Since Mom preferred not to have a "port" implanted, they were administering the drugs through an IV in her arm. Hopefull her veins will hold up. She really does not want that "port". After the anti-nausea med is finished, the nurse has to retrieve the orders from the doctor as to what chemo drugs Mom should be receiving. A mixologist creates the concoction of drugs, which is double and triple checked before being administered. Mom received Adrymiacin 1st, which was bright red. (She peed red the rest of the day!) Then the Cytoxin was given. Toward the end of the Cytoxin, Mom had a really weird look on her face. Throughout the beginning of the chemo, she was holding up really well. I was so proud of her. She had brought a book to read, but I gave her a PEOPLE Magazine; much more interesting reading. Plus, the other patients that are there strike up a conversation. Of course, Dad ended up knowing someone who was there. Anyhow, getting back to Mom's look of bewilderment. I asked her what was wrong and as soon as the nurses heard me, 2 of them went running over and started to fuss over her. Apparently if the Cytoxin is administered too quickly, it can make your head feel funny, which is exactly what Mom was feeling. She wouldn't say anything, though. I told her that whenever somethings isn't feeling right that she has to tell the nurses. They made a note on her chart to slow down the Cytoxin the next time. AND they reiterated that she must tell them when something feels amiss. The most important thing for the patients is that they are as comfortable as possible. They keep a fridge loaded with juices and pop, as well as pass around a basket full of goodies for the patients to munch on. A bunch of angels on earth they are. Truly.
Mom received her chemo schedule; she had to go back the next day for a shot called Neulasta. It is supposed to help keep your white cell count up, which will reduce infection. Mom will have to have blood taken once a week during the entire time frame of chemo treatment. They have to ensure that all of her counts are o.k. I am still researching this so I will fill you in once I am educated. Her next dose of chemotherapy is scheduled for June 3rd.
We got her home and chilled for most of the day. She actually slept, which was quite unusual for my mother. She NEVER naps during the day. She is emotionally, as well as physically exhausted, though. I had to work that night at Joey's so she was left in the care of Dad. Now that could be a whole other blog!
Next up, finding a wig and head coverings....................
First the nurse came in and took mom's blood pressure. It was 114/62, which was much better than the 1st time we were there. It was 160/80 on May 3rd; her very first visit with Dr. Simons, which was the day we thought we might receive a diagnosis.
We had read all of the literature given to us by the doctors and were better prepared for this visit on the 13th. At least we knew what we were dealing with at this point. Dr. Simons examined Mom and then we went to the "treatment room", which is nothing more than a bunch of recliners for the patients to sit in. It was a busy day on the 13th. Sandra, a nurse came and reviewed the treatment and side effects with Mom yet another time. She is very comforting. They all are. These nurses are truly amazing people. Anyhow, they began with an anti-nausea medicine. Since Mom preferred not to have a "port" implanted, they were administering the drugs through an IV in her arm. Hopefull her veins will hold up. She really does not want that "port". After the anti-nausea med is finished, the nurse has to retrieve the orders from the doctor as to what chemo drugs Mom should be receiving. A mixologist creates the concoction of drugs, which is double and triple checked before being administered. Mom received Adrymiacin 1st, which was bright red. (She peed red the rest of the day!) Then the Cytoxin was given. Toward the end of the Cytoxin, Mom had a really weird look on her face. Throughout the beginning of the chemo, she was holding up really well. I was so proud of her. She had brought a book to read, but I gave her a PEOPLE Magazine; much more interesting reading. Plus, the other patients that are there strike up a conversation. Of course, Dad ended up knowing someone who was there. Anyhow, getting back to Mom's look of bewilderment. I asked her what was wrong and as soon as the nurses heard me, 2 of them went running over and started to fuss over her. Apparently if the Cytoxin is administered too quickly, it can make your head feel funny, which is exactly what Mom was feeling. She wouldn't say anything, though. I told her that whenever somethings isn't feeling right that she has to tell the nurses. They made a note on her chart to slow down the Cytoxin the next time. AND they reiterated that she must tell them when something feels amiss. The most important thing for the patients is that they are as comfortable as possible. They keep a fridge loaded with juices and pop, as well as pass around a basket full of goodies for the patients to munch on. A bunch of angels on earth they are. Truly.
Mom received her chemo schedule; she had to go back the next day for a shot called Neulasta. It is supposed to help keep your white cell count up, which will reduce infection. Mom will have to have blood taken once a week during the entire time frame of chemo treatment. They have to ensure that all of her counts are o.k. I am still researching this so I will fill you in once I am educated. Her next dose of chemotherapy is scheduled for June 3rd.
We got her home and chilled for most of the day. She actually slept, which was quite unusual for my mother. She NEVER naps during the day. She is emotionally, as well as physically exhausted, though. I had to work that night at Joey's so she was left in the care of Dad. Now that could be a whole other blog!
Next up, finding a wig and head coverings....................
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
It is 2:25 P.M. on Tuesday. Mom went for bloodwork today. She got a copy of the paperwork, so I will know her "counts". I am trying to keep a close eye on everything.
Mom, aka Pat Salmen, is the most wonderful mother that anyone could ask for. She is an even better grandmother. She adores, my daughter, her only grandchild, who is in Australia studying abroad right now. Britt will be home on June 13th, thank goodness. What a scene the folks at Pittsburgh International Airport are going to see at 9:55 P.M. that night. Me, Mom, Dad and Joshua will be screaming and crying tears of happiness when we see our Brittany. Mom, especially will be overjoyed. My daughter idolizes her grandparents. Really. She does.
I get off track so easily. 1st visit with the surgeon was May 5th. Mom was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma. Immediately, the surgeon said "You will need chemotherapy." "You will lose your hair." You will have to have a mastectomy." You will have all the lymph nodes removed on your left side." "You will need to have radiation."
1st she found out that she has the "C" word. Then they throw all of that shit at you. But the surgeon, Mary Beth Malay, is absolutely wonderful. She is down to earth, very easy to talk to and she hugged Mom more than once. She laughed with us and most importantly she made sure that I had the answer to all of the 31, yes 31 questions I had prepared to her ahead of time. I wanted to make sure I had all of the bases covered. This is my mother and best friend we are talking about. Dr. Malay's staff is wonderful, as well. They felt like family before we left the office that day. Can't remember is I said so before, but Dr. Malay said the breast mass was 2 cm. and the lump under the arm was 5cm. Mama looked so scared. Hell, I was scared.
From there we had an appointment with the oncologist. We saw Dr. Simons and she reviewed the types of chemo Mom would receive. Adriamycin and Cytoxan for the 1st cycle. Tomaxere for the 2nd cycle. Again reiterated that she would lose her hair. A nurse then came in to review the side effects, way too many to list, and again, the fact that she would lose her hair. If one more person told her that she was going to lose her hair, I think I would have slapped them.
It is bad enough to find out the long fight you have ahead of you, but to know you have to fight the fight bald? Come on, now. This was a bit too much for my mama. If you know her well, you know that every hair must be in place at all times. Hell, my dad had to sell his convertible when they were first married because she wouldn't ride in it with him. After all, her hair would get messed up. :)
Back to the chemo nurse; she gave mom some brochures that had wigs, bandanas, head coverings, etc. to browse through. Mom wanted no part of it. Can't blame her.
Anyhow, after the chemotherapy nurse was in, a member of the finance staff came in to discuss the insurance coverage and all of that, which registered as nil, as our brains were mush from all of the other information we had received already.
Finally, it was time to go home, but not before scheduling her 1st chemo treatment. AND before that she had to have bloodwork and her heart tested to ensure it was strong enough for chemo. Bloodwork was scheduled for that Wednesday, along with the heart test and chemo was scheduled for Tuesday May 13th.
I just want to take my mother in my arms and hug it all away. We should be able to do that you, know. Just give someone we love a great big hug and then "poof" everything is wonderful again.
Mom, aka Pat Salmen, is the most wonderful mother that anyone could ask for. She is an even better grandmother. She adores, my daughter, her only grandchild, who is in Australia studying abroad right now. Britt will be home on June 13th, thank goodness. What a scene the folks at Pittsburgh International Airport are going to see at 9:55 P.M. that night. Me, Mom, Dad and Joshua will be screaming and crying tears of happiness when we see our Brittany. Mom, especially will be overjoyed. My daughter idolizes her grandparents. Really. She does.
I get off track so easily. 1st visit with the surgeon was May 5th. Mom was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma. Immediately, the surgeon said "You will need chemotherapy." "You will lose your hair." You will have to have a mastectomy." You will have all the lymph nodes removed on your left side." "You will need to have radiation."
1st she found out that she has the "C" word. Then they throw all of that shit at you. But the surgeon, Mary Beth Malay, is absolutely wonderful. She is down to earth, very easy to talk to and she hugged Mom more than once. She laughed with us and most importantly she made sure that I had the answer to all of the 31, yes 31 questions I had prepared to her ahead of time. I wanted to make sure I had all of the bases covered. This is my mother and best friend we are talking about. Dr. Malay's staff is wonderful, as well. They felt like family before we left the office that day. Can't remember is I said so before, but Dr. Malay said the breast mass was 2 cm. and the lump under the arm was 5cm. Mama looked so scared. Hell, I was scared.
From there we had an appointment with the oncologist. We saw Dr. Simons and she reviewed the types of chemo Mom would receive. Adriamycin and Cytoxan for the 1st cycle. Tomaxere for the 2nd cycle. Again reiterated that she would lose her hair. A nurse then came in to review the side effects, way too many to list, and again, the fact that she would lose her hair. If one more person told her that she was going to lose her hair, I think I would have slapped them.
It is bad enough to find out the long fight you have ahead of you, but to know you have to fight the fight bald? Come on, now. This was a bit too much for my mama. If you know her well, you know that every hair must be in place at all times. Hell, my dad had to sell his convertible when they were first married because she wouldn't ride in it with him. After all, her hair would get messed up. :)
Back to the chemo nurse; she gave mom some brochures that had wigs, bandanas, head coverings, etc. to browse through. Mom wanted no part of it. Can't blame her.
Anyhow, after the chemotherapy nurse was in, a member of the finance staff came in to discuss the insurance coverage and all of that, which registered as nil, as our brains were mush from all of the other information we had received already.
Finally, it was time to go home, but not before scheduling her 1st chemo treatment. AND before that she had to have bloodwork and her heart tested to ensure it was strong enough for chemo. Bloodwork was scheduled for that Wednesday, along with the heart test and chemo was scheduled for Tuesday May 13th.
I just want to take my mother in my arms and hug it all away. We should be able to do that you, know. Just give someone we love a great big hug and then "poof" everything is wonderful again.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Where Do I Begin?
Where do I begin? Life certainly can throw you curve balls every now & then, but this tops them all. Mom has been diagnosed with breast cancer. I am going to try and tell her story. You see, she has no computer skills whatsoever. And I mean NONE. Brittany & I have both tried countless times to teach both her & Dad, but to no avail. So, it will be up to us to tell Mom's story for her.
It all began last July (2006) when she felt a lump in her left breast. She scheduled a mammogram at Jameson Hospital and told them before the test that she had discovered a lump. Nothing to worry about they said. Benign, it was. How they knew that without doing further testing, I have yet to figure out, but hey. It is Jameson.
In April of this year, Mom discovered a lump under her arm. She immediately scheduled an appointment with her PCP and it has been a roller coaster ride since. Dr. Coleman scheduled another mammogram at College Fields and a CAT scan. CAT scan was fine, but the mammogram resulted in "Suspicious" findings. No shit, we thought. Any lump under your arm and in your breast are suspicious. (Sorry, you will view much sarcasm throughout this blog. I am so good at sarcasm. Dr. Coleman said Mom had a 2 cm mass in her left breast and she was very concerned about the lump under the arm, as they were connected. Literally connected, that is.
From there, we went to the Oncologist on April 15, 2008. We already knew that Mom would need a biopsy, but apparently we had to pay $25 to the specialist before that could be officially determined. We won't even go there because we had to wait more than one week to see the oncologist, after hearing that the mammogram was supicious. The oncologist then told us what we already knew; that a biopsy was required. Neither here not there at this point.
Dad & I took Mom for her biopsy. They also had her scheduled for a bone scan the same day; Monday April 21, 2008. 1st up the biopsy. Mom was a nervous wreck. Dr. Schaffer, the head radiologist was going to be doing the biopsy, though, and he is the most gentle man. What a sweetheart. They took 3 samples from under her arm and 2 from her breast. Then she had to have the dye injected for the bone scan. We went home for 2 hours; then took her back for the scan. Good news! The bone scan looked good. No further problems were detected with that test. Thank God.
We hadn't heard anything as of Thursday of that week. I suggested that Mom call the Dr. to find out what the Hell was going on. All of this waiting was making Mom more of a nervous wreck than she normally is. The not knowing is a horrid thing. On Thursday afternoon, Dr. Simon's office (oncologist) contacted Mom to have her pick up all of her films and reports. They had to be hand delivered to Dr. Malay's office in Cranberry. Mom was still clueless at this point, although I will admit that when she called me at work to tell me this, my heart sank. I thought I would instantly throw up. They wouldn't have her hand deliver her info to the surgeon unless it was that ugly "C" word. By this time, NO ONE had called Mom to tell her the test results. NO ONE. Not the radiologist, the PCP or the oncologist. What the HELL is wrong with these people, I thought?
On Friday, Mom & Dad picked up her info, stopped at College Fields to get her results, (wouldn't give them to her.) and I had just about had enough. Mom & Dad were on their way to Cranberry and I called Dr. Coleman's office to speak to someone, anyone who would be brutally honest with me. Anita, who is my most favorite nurse there, called me back. Not good news. Are you sure? I asked. When deep down, I knew it before she even told me. Just then, Mom & Dad stopped in on there way back from Cranberry. Stage 2 cancer. That is all Mom could remember. She was crying, dad was crying and I was attempting to hold my own while they were there. I refused to cry in front of her. Someone has to stay strong...........................
It all began last July (2006) when she felt a lump in her left breast. She scheduled a mammogram at Jameson Hospital and told them before the test that she had discovered a lump. Nothing to worry about they said. Benign, it was. How they knew that without doing further testing, I have yet to figure out, but hey. It is Jameson.
In April of this year, Mom discovered a lump under her arm. She immediately scheduled an appointment with her PCP and it has been a roller coaster ride since. Dr. Coleman scheduled another mammogram at College Fields and a CAT scan. CAT scan was fine, but the mammogram resulted in "Suspicious" findings. No shit, we thought. Any lump under your arm and in your breast are suspicious. (Sorry, you will view much sarcasm throughout this blog. I am so good at sarcasm. Dr. Coleman said Mom had a 2 cm mass in her left breast and she was very concerned about the lump under the arm, as they were connected. Literally connected, that is.
From there, we went to the Oncologist on April 15, 2008. We already knew that Mom would need a biopsy, but apparently we had to pay $25 to the specialist before that could be officially determined. We won't even go there because we had to wait more than one week to see the oncologist, after hearing that the mammogram was supicious. The oncologist then told us what we already knew; that a biopsy was required. Neither here not there at this point.
Dad & I took Mom for her biopsy. They also had her scheduled for a bone scan the same day; Monday April 21, 2008. 1st up the biopsy. Mom was a nervous wreck. Dr. Schaffer, the head radiologist was going to be doing the biopsy, though, and he is the most gentle man. What a sweetheart. They took 3 samples from under her arm and 2 from her breast. Then she had to have the dye injected for the bone scan. We went home for 2 hours; then took her back for the scan. Good news! The bone scan looked good. No further problems were detected with that test. Thank God.
We hadn't heard anything as of Thursday of that week. I suggested that Mom call the Dr. to find out what the Hell was going on. All of this waiting was making Mom more of a nervous wreck than she normally is. The not knowing is a horrid thing. On Thursday afternoon, Dr. Simon's office (oncologist) contacted Mom to have her pick up all of her films and reports. They had to be hand delivered to Dr. Malay's office in Cranberry. Mom was still clueless at this point, although I will admit that when she called me at work to tell me this, my heart sank. I thought I would instantly throw up. They wouldn't have her hand deliver her info to the surgeon unless it was that ugly "C" word. By this time, NO ONE had called Mom to tell her the test results. NO ONE. Not the radiologist, the PCP or the oncologist. What the HELL is wrong with these people, I thought?
On Friday, Mom & Dad picked up her info, stopped at College Fields to get her results, (wouldn't give them to her.) and I had just about had enough. Mom & Dad were on their way to Cranberry and I called Dr. Coleman's office to speak to someone, anyone who would be brutally honest with me. Anita, who is my most favorite nurse there, called me back. Not good news. Are you sure? I asked. When deep down, I knew it before she even told me. Just then, Mom & Dad stopped in on there way back from Cranberry. Stage 2 cancer. That is all Mom could remember. She was crying, dad was crying and I was attempting to hold my own while they were there. I refused to cry in front of her. Someone has to stay strong...........................
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